Sunday, February 21, 2010

Time.

How do you get over someone you love? Someone you spent every day with, grew with, someone who became your best friend. How do you get over the pain of knowing that the promises he made, promises that mean the world to you, don't even cross his mind? How do you fall asleep without the tears on your pillow? How do you get his voice out of your head? The voice telling you you're the most beautiful girl in the world, the words I love you. His laugh when you get frustrated, because you can't find a thing to wear and you start to pout. The feeling of his arms wrapping around you when tears about to pour out, because you burnt the cookies. His smile when the song lyrics on the radio remind him of you, then he looks over and the look in his eyes are priceless. How do you move on from the one you were planning on spending the rest of you life with?

Time.



Find someone who drives and hour just to see you. Who stays, even though you're a complete bi.. brat. Someone who offers to go shopping with you when you've just got in an argument with your parents and want to spend that time alone. Someone who shows up at the mall anyway after being rudely spoken to, because he knew you would call him as soon as you got there wishing you had accepted his company.

Time.

Hold onto that one who is patient with you when you're shopping and can't find anything that fits, being hungry, cramping, and under a time limit (and about in tears). The one who doesn't have words when you show him the dress you've just tried on, he just simply wraps his arms around you and holds you. 

Time.

Appreciate the one by your side when you leave the mall with nothing. Frustrated and still hungry. The one who offers to bring you back to the mall after you drop the car off, and you harshly reject. The same one who shows up at your door knowing you would regret giving the cold shoulder and wished he was there to take you back the second you walk in the door.

Time.

Accept the one who continues shopping with the irritable girl who had been negative the whole night. The one who never complained, never reacted unkindly in return. The one who stays by your side and doesn't give up on you, even when you've given up on yourself.

Time.

Love the one you think of at night that brings you continuous smiles, instead of countless tears.



Monday, February 15, 2010

XOXO

There are two types of people in the world. There are the ones that love Valentines Day and then there are the ones who hate it. I use to be the one of the many girls who hated it, up until a couple years ago when I got a huge teddy bear and candy from a guy who liked me. Ever since then I've loved this holiday. I didn't think too much into this holiday except looking forward to getting chocolate and stuffed animals, until this year... I was noticing everyone's blogs and facebook statuses about this resented day, then I went into my room and noticed my beautiful flowers Jared got me and a heart shaped letter my friend Amy wrote me and I couldn't see how anyone could hate this holiday.



Later that night I got a surprise on my doorstep, Jared had left me a frog and a letter. A couple hours later Jeremiah brought me over chocolates. This day just kept getting better and better. Chocolates, Flowers, and stuffed animals are keys to a girls heart, so how could anyone not love this holiday?!




Ten minutes and ten pounds later I got the answer. My best friend Gabrielle came over. She was sad, so I asked her what was going on. Valentines Day had come to an end and she hadn't seen or heard from her boyfriend all day. The look on her face when she told me broke my heart. I hated seeing her so sad. The rest of the night she kept me laughing. I swore i've never laughed so hard in my life. When she left I thought about how grateful I was to have her in my life, then I thought about Jared, Amy, Jeremiah and everyone else who had made my day so special and I realized it's not about the material things. Sure, chocolate is great, and flowers are beautiful, but it's the people in your lives that make life fun and exciting. So i've come to the conclusion that everyone should love this holiday, because I am sure everyone has someone in their life that they've been blessed with. Someone who when you think of them you can't help but smile. So let them know. Not just on Valentines Day, but every day.